i love you all my darlings. your soo beautiful!...
Anonymous asked: So i have been a good girl and i didn't cut (even though just a few days) but I've been losing appetite and not really feeling quite good... ? So im wondering if this is normal?
Anonymous asked: Thank you for your advice talking to people really helped x
Anonymous asked: I've been told by my mum that I need to go to the doctors today because they think I have SAD, and that's why I'm failing subjects at school, but I really can't face going because there's some things that I can't face to talk about infront of them, so I am thinking of purposely skipping the appointment, is this a good idea? x
I love each and every one of you. i know depression is hard, self harm and suicde; even the pressure to be skinny enough. There’s always a way of easing the pain without the blade or without the binging and perging. Reach out and speak out. You may think you are a burden but do not ever think that way. You are soo much more and right now you matter the most. Take care of yourself my love....
Sometimes it’s ok to cry, sometimes it’s the only thing you can do.– Kalen Lewis (via cut-through-the-sorrow)
Anonymous asked: I know, it's just so hard not to let it get to me. She'd been my friend since we were 4 and she just freaked out and stopped talking to me after 13 years of being friends. It just hurt to lose someone I'd had in my life for so long. Especially in that way.
Anonymous asked: My "best friend" told me I should just kill myself already so she wouldn't have to listen to me complain all the time. That's mainly what triggered it. I just kind of broke after hearing that because I was already having a really hard time.
Anonymous asked: I really believe your whole secrets keep you sick thing. And so I just need to get this out. Last month I fucked up 6 months without cutting. Then I got so depressed about that I just completely gave up trying not to cut and now I can hardly go a day without cutting at least once. It's usually much more though.
just for the curious ones
Sorry Lovlies, I'm at my ask limit. If i am...
It hurts doesn't it? To have to smile when you...
Reply: its okay to cry love.. it hurts less than to keep it all in. it is healthy and you are never too vulnerable to just break out in tears. just cry a little my love… its okay. im here for you, always.
bladessuicideandsex asked: you're the type of person the world needs more of. You're sweet and caring and reaching out to complete strangers. And honestly you're quite inspiring. Keep smiling, stay strong, and keep your head up high. <3
Anonymous asked: I can't cry. Ever. Sometimes I just really feel like I need to or I'm going to explode. Other times I just don't feel anything and I want to cry to maybe feel something.
suicidalcutterr: When I go to the gym I see only fucking skinny girls. Where are the fat girls like me?!! My self confidence is low. Reply: lovely it doesn’t matter if they are skinnier than you. you are beautiful in every way. and look, you are trying your best to improve yourself, refining beauty. i am proud of you. keep your chin up beautiful. love you xx
hi I'm maddee and I'm a piece of shit
s-tarvation: see even my name doesn’t get capitalized, I’m completely fucking worthless. Useless, hurt, too broken to be loved, empty, the list goes on and on and on and on. I am a complete and utter failure. It’s kind of funny how I beat myself up and abuse myself, I’d laugh at it. Or maybe it’s just the sneering voice, Ana, in the back of my mind talking here. Reply: Maddee, i believe...
razorbladesandroses: I told my friend i almost passed out in the shower and she went on to talk about how pretty another girl was. Thanks for caring. Reply: Sometimes friends dont know how to respond to your type of situation. Or their busy in theor own world. Either way it is hard for anyone to understand what you are going through and know what to say since they are not in your situation....
Anonymous asked: I don't know how to tell people how I feel... I want to disappear, I want this pain to go away... please make it stop.
i hate when people tell me im "gorgeous" or...
Reply: sure we have flaws. but those flaws made us stronger. a kind of perfection that makes us more stronger in every way. in my opinion that is beauty. learning and knowing that pain. pushing ourselves each day to live on. having the courage to keep breathing even when pain devoured us. to me that is beautiful in every way.
I'm so tired of having so many secrets. I don't...
Reply: Secrets keep us sick love. the more we keep in, the sicker we get. it’s why we need to speak, be vulnerable to words just for a bit. vomit to feel better. it may hurt but afterwards you feel a bit better.
chemicalc0llision-deactivated20 asked: On my phone i cant reply privately, but thankyou so much and i hope youve had a lovely day too xx
chemicalc0llision: It’s nice to be able to say ‘i havent cut since last year’ even though its only a few days. i dont think it was last too long though.. Reply: a few days, a week. one week - two. it is all progress. don’t give up. you are getting stronger with each day and learning. im proud of you for trying. and it will get easier as the days pass in your own effort. keep the chin up...
I can't even begin to describe how I feel right...
Reply: Sometimes things do get rough. though they do for a reason. To make us stronger. to teach us how to handle things and learn. Usually half the time we don’t cause them on ourselves. Through this it is our moment to push it aside and believe we are much better than the situation. Remove yourself from the situation. If it is hurt, lovely, we have all battled that road. Look ahead, stay...
kathyalessthanthree: It’s like a part of me wants to keep fighting and continue to fool people, but at the same time a part of me just wants to drop the fake smile, the laughter, everything. I have nothing to hold on to, to live for, nothing to keep me going. Reply: dont ever think that lovely. You are soo much more than that. You have a life that is blossoming. You have a wide future ahead of...
Reblog if you'd care if I commited suicide...
Reply: to everyone that comes across this post i do care. If anyone needs an ear to listen or a helping hand. Someone to confide in this painful night we can listen to you. It may be hard and sometimes the blade isn’t enough. We needed someone to scream our hurt or thoughts to. We are here. don’t ever hesitate. sometimes just vomiting what is inside your mind and heart helps. It may...
Drugs, with that shit my psychologist wants to...
Reply: Drugs, Anti-depressants, Sleep Medication, Behavioral Medication, etc.. its all for a reason. to balance the seritonin in our brain. Though drugs can only do soo much. The rest is a working process of you, yourself. Which is stronger than any drug. The drugs is like a sidekick, you are the wounded hero who has the chance to pick yourself up and fly again.
I HATE MYSELF AND I WANT TO DIE
Lovely, you have hope. You may nto realize it but you are worth something. To me and to the people around you that try to help you. dont ever give up. if i didnt care for the people that cry and help.. i wouldnt be telling you this truth. Love yourself. fuck what society holds against you and live. you are beautiful in every way. keep your chin up and keep pushing. i know you deserve happiness. i...
bladessuicideandsex: Maybe I did make a mistake not killing myself when I had the chance. Reply: No you were brave and you were strong in making that choice to live. Pain may be hard and possibly nothing seems to make sense excpet the pain but you need to believe that ther eis hope. Fuck everyone else and believe in yourself. You are beautiful. and worth something. to us, all of us.
I desperately need to find something to care...
Reply: Find what drives you. The drive may seem foggy but look at the things that motivate you. Pick it up and once you have that passion fueled once again, protect that fire and care for it with your life.